ReiDhamper

So it's been a while and I know this isn't exactly a positive journal to start my return with... But I need to clear some air. And since I'm not one who likes to start fights, I'm moving my thoughts here. I've always felt dA was a place that I could always be myself and get feedback that was productive, regardless of whether it was positive or negative.

So here's my piece:
I have a friend in real life, she has been wanting me to go out for a while now. Hang out and stuff... But it's always at a friggin bar. I don't want to go to a bat, I don't want to drink or be around drinks. I prefer to drink when I want, not when my friends feel like I need to "hang". And well she's been asking me to hang out for like every week for 3 or 4 months now. My life has been busy so I've been DECLINING her invites. Well tonight she basically gave me well felt like a very poor attempt at an ultimatum...and well there's one thing you don't do with me...and that's tell me what to do, especially if it's cause I'm not playing along with your yes mam crud. And I kept telling her in several text messages that my dog of 14 years may be passing away soon....glossed right over that and just kept trying to guilt me into going. I had told her everyday for two weeks that I didn't want to go to karaoke tonight. For weeks I said no, and well she just kept expecting me to go with her.

Glosses over something, no SOMEONE that means the world to me.

I hold my friends dear to me, like they're family. But I can and will drop any and all friends if I have to like a rock. My family means more to me than every trinket I own or will ever own. They come first before even my self. And if my friends are to selfish to see and understand this, then they weren't, aren't, and never will be my friend.

I know this seems like a situation that I need to deal with soon, and trust me...if school wasn't starting and my hours at work going to go down, I'd so get into it with her. Even if I do live in small USA, I ain't afraid to end a friendship.

Wellllll, I'll have a more cheery journal next time.

To start off, I've gotten a new car... Yes another new car. On June 7th 2014 I was hit on my way to work in my cobalt and well the front end was beyond repair so I was forced to get another car. It's a fathom blue KIA Soul and I love it. I've been promoted at my job, I'm becoming a manager. Yeah I work at McD's but still becoming a manger looks great on work history and I'm willing to work for it. It's a great opportunity that I'm thankful to have. Hopefully I'll be able to save up money to buy myself a new computer so I can get back into my art and stuff. I feel like I'm a ghost here. The feel of dA is so off to me. It's been to long. I need to get back into the swing of things. Make some new friends here and get in touch with my old dA pals that still float around here. My groups and my brother's group need some attention, we've neglected them a bit.

So enough about me and my boring life, how are you guys?

Sorry I've been gone for what feels like forever. Art brought me back, not my own but art from others. I miss this place. But right now I'm not gonna do anything creative yet. I just said goodbye to a really good car. I know, doesn't make since if it was good why get rid of it. Well it was good in the sense that I grew up with it and it was given to me for graduation. It was my first car. Lots of memories. A friendship of sorts if you believe in that stuff. I'm really gonna miss it. I had an accident in it, and because of it I wasn't hurt at all. But since it was an older car, insurance wrote it off as a total loss. I wish I could have kept it, to be honest....but I had to let it go. It kept me alive twice. And if you believe in this mush, it's spirit well always protect me. But basically, I'm too raw, too hurt and sad to really do anything but write this and hope to live each day as simple as possible until I can truly let go and move on. I hope ya guys understand if not, it doesn't really matter. Just wanted to let you guys know that I'm still alive and that I'm busy with work and letting go of something that I personally considered to be a part of my family.

~Heather S.

Hey y'all. I know it's been like forever. I'm on the internet via an iPad so can't really do much art, but in my spare time I have been trying to do a little writing. I'll post some of the stuff on my SpookyLuna account (that is if I can remember my password lol) when I get a chance.

Still computerless. Broke up with my boyfriend (months ago). Jobless (had one -volunteer- but was "let go"). And wish I could get on and talk to y'all again.