So it's been a while and I know this isn't exactly a positive journal to start my return with... But I need to clear some air. And since I'm not one who likes to start fights, I'm moving my thoughts here. I've always felt dA was a place that I could always be myself and get feedback that was productive, regardless of whether it was positive or negative.
So here's my piece:
I have a friend in real life, she has been wanting me to go out for a while now. Hang out and stuff... But it's always at a friggin bar. I don't want to go to a bat, I don't want to drink or be around drinks. I prefer to drink when I want, not when my friends feel like I need to "hang". And well she's been asking me to hang out for like every week for 3 or 4 months now. My life has been busy so I've been DECLINING her invites. Well tonight she basically gave me well felt like a very poor attempt at an ultimatum...and well there's one thing you don't do with me...and that's tell me what to do, especially if it's cause I'm not playing along with your yes mam crud. And I kept telling her in several text messages that my dog of 14 years may be passing away soon....glossed right over that and just kept trying to guilt me into going. I had told her everyday for two weeks that I didn't want to go to karaoke tonight. For weeks I said no, and well she just kept expecting me to go with her.
Glosses over something, no SOMEONE that means the world to me.
I hold my friends dear to me, like they're family. But I can and will drop any and all friends if I have to like a rock. My family means more to me than every trinket I own or will ever own. They come first before even my self. And if my friends are to selfish to see and understand this, then they weren't, aren't, and never will be my friend.
I know this seems like a situation that I need to deal with soon, and trust me...if school wasn't starting and my hours at work going to go down, I'd so get into it with her. Even if I do live in small USA, I ain't afraid to end a friendship.
Wellllll, I'll have a more cheery journal next time.